Lack of compassion for yourself.
Compassion is a leap of faith.
There needs to be no reason or justification for it.
If it’s based on reasons, it becomes a story to defend instead of an opening to experience.
To say you’re compassionate to yourself because: “You had a hard childhood” or “There was nothing you could have done about it” or “You’re a good person.”
Does it help?
What if tomorrow you have different thoughts, such as “I’m a bad person” or “I don’t deserve compassion” or “I could have tried harder”?
Don’t you want your life to become about something other than trying to get away from a big part of yourself: your memories, your feelings, and your thoughts?