Let go of the pain.
It doesn’t mean you will, or should, forget your suffering. That would be another kind of denial.
It means being willing to own the sadness, the hurt and the fears, embarrassments, and anger about how you have had to live your life.
It means being willing to be specific about all the ways you fought for emotional survivorship. How you attempted to compensate for powerlessness, and how you tried to gain control.
Whatever brings you to your new beginning, you will need to attend to some core issues from your past, so that they no longer dictate how you live your life today.
You can’t go forward without finishing the past.
Are you not tired of the incredible sense of shame and fear that has been so significant in your life?