When you find a hobby that you’re good at, be ready for people to tell you to make money off it.

There are two reactions this suggestion brings up:

When I started crocheting July 2019 it was a breath of fresh air. I was still trying to make sense of one of the biggest disappointments of my life; not having a graduation ceremony. And more or less engaging in a fistfight with depression, except I was losing.

Being in summer school for one course leaves you with a lot of free time. I had classes 3 hours a week and 95% of the time the teacher only showed up for 2 hours.

I became very uncomfortable having so much free time and nothing to do with it. I was reading a lot more, and spending more time on social media. But it wasn’t enough.

I don’t remember exactly how I remembered I used to crochet back in high school. But once I did, I looked up the craft and was instantly hooked.

I was binging crochet tutorials on YouTube and Instagram for days on end. One day my spontaneous spending trait took over, and I ordered a crochet hook set with no money to pay for it.

Fortunately, after telling my dad about my situation, he paid for it ☺. I bought 3 skeins of yarn after getting my hooks, and I was set for my first crochet project.

I Killed my Passion for Crocheting by Trying to Monetize it

Why I Monetized My Joy

I mentioned that being good at something comes with people telling you to make money from it. I was no exception.

I was getting better at the craft with each project, and the community is filled with people who make a living from it. And with people asking me if I could make a piece for them, that they would pay for; I thought “hey I can do it too.”

I started actively advertising. I turned my online journal on IG to a business account, set up a crochet blog on WordPress, set up several online wallets, and opened an Etsy account. Looks like I was ready for business.

What Happened?

My business died and so did my passion. I’ll be honest with you. Doing something for fun and doing it for money are completely different concepts. And switching from the first to the second is an overwhelming process.

Sometimes you’ll get lost in it. I’m not saying you can’t make money off your passion and still enjoy it, many people do. I’m saying it’s hard to find a balance in doing so.

I became obsessed with the idea of making money from my craft. If I’m being honest, I didn’t care about the money so much. It was the need to fit into the image I had created for myself. The girl who took a hobby and turned it into a foolproof money-making venture. And she’s loving it.

I became fixated with stats of how well my ads were doing, constantly checking how much I was making, and feeling like a failure when I didn’t make the sales I expected.

My hobby turned in a startup, and I wasn’t enjoying it. Not only did I eventually quit the business, but I also abandoned my hobby with it.

Where Am I Now?

Right now, I haven’t crocheted anything in a while. I can’t even remember what my last project was. While my initial zeal for the craft is gone, I can’t say I don’t still love it. I plan to pick up from where I left. But as a hobby, I love and not a money-making scheme.

This experience has taught me to enjoy things as they are. They do not need to give me any form of compensation other than the happiness I get from doing them. And that is more than enough.