I noticed the symptom very odd symptom. The muscles on the half part of my face reshuffle and never relax. And I still experienced that to this day. I went for MRI scans, multiple of them, and all sorts of other kinds of odd fine motor experiments done by neurologists. And then finally, after a week of testing, I saw an oncologist, who had all the data in all of the scans and all the other kind of write up reports from me balancing on one leg and closing one eye and so forth. He kind of looked at me within five minutes of meeting me. And said quite bluntly, he didn't seem sad to that it was unlikely that I was going to survive. This kind of brain tumor.
I hit rock bottom there. There was nothing left of my life other than work in pain. My entire existence was all about pushing through the pain trying to numb the pain, just to manage. Dealing with the pain dealing with insomnia. And it got so bad that I just started getting all kinds of random sicknesses and vertigo and different viruses and things. And I was barely making it work. So I was thinking about filing for disability or killing myself.
J. What is Trauma? Joshua. I define trauma as an experience or situation that fundamentally alters the way I believe the world should work. My perception of the world gets flipped upside down. If I’m not able to integrate these experiences into my life. It can really leave me with a profound sense of isolation […]
What is vulnerability to you? Willingness to let others see that which you feel you must hide. It’s holding your fear with tenderness. What vulnerability feels like to you? Alive and unguarded. Why are you practicing vulnerability? To feel alive. What’s your response to a violation of you being vulnerable? A vulnerability is the willingness […]
What is vulnerability to you? A vulnerability is choosing to be open-minded and open-hearted in the face of any person or situation. A vulnerability is not weakness; it is flexibility and resiliency. Vulnerability requires self-awareness What vulnerability feels like to you? Vulnerability used to feel like my stomach turning to water, my knees knocking, and […]
What is vulnerability to you? Vulnerability to me is revealing my true feelings. It is completely showing when I am upset, angry, or overcome with joy. It’s sharing my hopes and fears. It’s about being open and not hiding what I am feeling at that moment. What vulnerability feels like to you? Vulnerability feels freeing, […]
As lucky as we were to be accepted as new Australians. After migrating from Singapore when I was a kid. Everyone, not just me is trying to figure out how to fit in. And what to do with their lives. Even now as a 46-year-old, father, husband, and son. I still struggle to figure out my place in the world. My contribution. Do I take out more than I put in?
For the next 9 ½ years, I traveled back and forth to and from China with my ex. I didn’t really like living there, to be honest, because it had so much pollution, rude people, and unclean food. Not to mention, my Chinese was worst than a kindergarten’s (I couldn’t tell people what I wanted without pulling Google translate!). But I wanted to learn how to be a good “housewife.” How I could adapt to this Chinese culture I hated so much.